guess im really affected by this band tings....omg...i wun come back band any more...but it's a really tough decision on my part....how do u expect me to tear away from something that i've been wid for 10 years???how u tell me???
wel..i dun reallie act tat way in school...but deep in my heart...it's really heart wrenching...i hafta act like it's no big deal...but it really is...i cant show pple that im that sort of person....that i was hurt inside and outside...sometimes i jus wish i cud die....but that wud be selfish...i'll be leaving my frens...and i cant bear to do that...
im not sure why some of my closest frens haf changed...or somehow...i duno...i cant communicate wid them anymore...everything's becum so tender....im really scared of losing it...yet i noe that if i hold on to it...i'll lose it even more....wad am i supposed to do??if calling is the onli way of getting back everything...i'll do it...why do pple keep asking me to study??i really hate studying...so wad if i go to a poly or jc???i tink that we shld do wad we reallie enjoy...not be forced....
hope that tml's a better day...i really miss u...can u go back to ur old self again???
[vindicated i am selfish i am wrong]
_cry me a river_
Sunday, August 01, 2004
D.I.E
The Dream Catchers