i promised i'll update about the sch dinner and the bbq.so here i am.i jus didn't expect myself to update so early.WAHAHA!

anyways the sch dinner was really good.on top of feeling the nolstalgic feelings about the school, we could in fact catch up with alot of the teachers.and we took hell lots of photos.haha.the alumni band played first.frankly i tink i din play well.partially because i never practice enough haha!cocked up a little.but before that i didn't cock up.i tink i was jus nervous AS USUAL.when will i ever stop feeling nervous ar?den sang the sch song twice.that was the time when all the memories flooded back into my mind:from sec 1 to sec4, the band, the handball, the friends, the food, the teachers, and basically EVERYONE!i was quite touched.although on the surface we say 'aiya we don't care about the school' , but i think everyone still does have a place for the school in their hearts.

talkin about the dinner, im probably feeling a little befuddled now.was jus watching yanzi's wbng and yxr MVs [wbng=wo bu nan guo, yxr=yin xing ren].and before that i was watching wo de ai MTV special.den all these all lovey-dovey de.jus SUDDENLY felt the person whom i've been liking for the past 5 years.seriously thought i got over him.BUT I DIDN'T!rawr!feeling abit angry at myself man.im so silly waiting for something that will never be mine. LOL.

okay about the bbq.not too many pple turned up.but it was good.we had quality time together.got to catch up with the girls and stuff.and we got the fire started!not bad for a bunch of girls rite?haaaa and cooked and ate at the same time.thinkin back when all of us started as sec1s and growing up and graduatin from sec4s the times we spent together.that was enough to touch me.personal stuff poured out, no one laughed at no one.we jus felt each other's welcoming presence.even though i was rather quiet.i didn't know why.jus felt that i didn't see the need of speaking so much. have i really grown up?or am i jus retreating back into sullen-ness?

anyways HAPPY BIRTHDAY RAY IN ADVANCE!im terribly sorry i didn't get u any birthday present, im really really broke man.

'men should not accept our destiny, we should choose it'-yanzi
i shook yanzi's hand on 30th april 2006
never let the fear of striking out keep you from playing the game.